RIDDANCE

 a human condition is a sense of generalized boredom, social alienation and apathy.


It's fearing the unknown.

It's imagining breathlessness.







It's not managing the scrabbles.

 



It's space-less.

 

It's quitting everything on your grasps. 

 


It's soaring differently.

It's a farewell.

 




It's threading on wood.

 

It's impossible.

REESE

“I think that perhaps we always fall in love the very first time we see the man of our dreams, even though, at the time, reason may be telling otherwise, and we may fight against that instinct, hoping against hope that we won't win, until there comes a point when we allow ourselves to be vanquished by our feelings...”







Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.


The moment of that kiss contained every happy moment I had ever lived.




“I think that when we look for love courageously, it reveals itself, and we wind up attracting even more love. If one person really wants us, everyone does. But if we're alone, we become even more alone. Life is strange.




"Why do we have to listen to our hearts?" "Because, wherever your heart is, that is where you'll find your treasure.




"Does he love me?"
...
"You're asking the wrong question.  What you need to know is are you in a position to give him the love he needs.  And whatever happens or doesn't happen will be equally gratifying.  Knowing that you are capable of love is enough.  If it isn't him, it will be someone else.  You've discovered a wellspring; simply allow it to flow and it will fill your world.  Don't try to keep a safe distance so as to see what happens.  Don't wait to be certain before you take a step."

One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.

I Just Won

3rd day..

I won. I just did it. I succeeded.
I never thought it would be this early. Winning is so sweet. It went crazily delicious for me.

This day I took the MRT and went to Dhouby Ghaut to meet my cousin Ash then we went to the malls in orchard, she had been living here, she is taking her college here. But then everything in orchard had almost seem unfamiliar for her. And it's a good thing for me, at least we will be exploring things and places together.
Of course, we didn't left the streets of Orchard without the famous "dirty ice cream" here - when in fact it is not as dirty as it is in the PH because it's SELECTA! - named WALL'S. It is so delicious, I wanted to let you try this because I know you are such fun of ice creams.

                

                         

Then we finished at around 630pm with daylight still surrounding us.
We hang around their place, watched silly comedy stuffs here in SG. People here really look funny and stupid, well I know for them we looked the same thing we think of them. Then after dinner, we went out again, now with another cousin, the three of us lurked at places and people around. People during the 930pm time looks and acts really funny and weird. We just laughed at them so hard. We ended up at some place near my place, Shane another cousin of mine, showed us their so called "Narnia" place. At the end of the street, we saw a very dark and creepy forest, we were stunned to see a cement staircase at its side. We went up it, it was really creepy but as we reached the top it was a cemented, a little long pavement in it, where we watched the sky. The sky here don't really have a lot shiny in it. Less stars here. Then a call came, asking them to go home, so the day was over.

The first thing I did when I arrived home, is to check for the "update". It was an hour past post since I came. It was a simple picture. But damn, it melted my heart.

Then button was switched on. I won!! It felt enormous. It felt like burning me, it swells my eyes. Its just so good, so great to finally see words, real time conversation with this special person.

But I know in myself that I didn't really win things over and in contrary to it I made things harder.
And at the end of the conversation these words were what I told myself :

extrasystole

Second day..


arggggh.
the day seems long. longer than i expected it to be.. updating and waiting went a little crazily impatient for me.
I just miss you big time.
The windows here are open even on night time..
Horror scene everywhere. The corridors. The bricks. The streets. The silence.

but this.. made my day.

even if I don't really know if its for me.

HAHA!! This is for me.

but with this.. i know. it's mine.

invade the HERO!

first day..


Things were easy here.
It's cloudy. Dark a bit. I just love the weather today.
People are quiet here. The streets are quiet too.
Everywhere was like a good place to read a book or paint or draw onto.




I washed the dishes today, and of course I just happened to slipped a bowl out of the counter and bang! it was deserted into pieces. Great!
I even did the cheese stick with a twist - it was stuffed with ham, bell pepper and cheese - that was teased as "pizza stick".
I wanted, actually I needed to be busy. So freaking much.
While I was doing the pizza stick, I was still thinking about someone.
It sucks. It ruins me. It ruins my being.
My phone is still empty, my uncle even went out to buy me a charger.
When in fact, I don't want it on - it will just kill me more.
The urge to stop whatever I was doing just to check if a message was there.
The missing feeling on every single day of messaging each other.
It was enormous.
Nonsustaining me.
Last night went incredible for being a WALL STALKER. It was like please-update-your-wall-so-i-can-see-what-your-unto kind of thing. Damn.. It feels crazy.

"Misunderstanding an
Internal
Suffering for
Someone like
U!"
Even liking this status went difficult.
awwwwwwwwwwwww.... leaving was easy, accepting it was the most difficult part.


I happened to pass by a theater house in the plaza,
4 foreign films i know and 2 local films I barely know, and I wonder if I can watch one of the local films titled Romancing in Thin Air with you. But it just seem impossible. 


I keep wondering on how you were able to handle things now.