D-E-N-Y

ignorance would be bliss.

I didn't expect things to be as difficult as it seems now.

He's so much more. Than just by looking how fragile he seems.
It's annoying.

It's like magnet for me.
The more I oppose, the more I get dragged on it.

The days seemed longer.
I just wanted to hide myself.
I wanted to stray on the strings,
let the wind take me and
just forget the past.

I wanted to fly away from you.

I wanted to figure it out.

But what am I dreaming?

I thought I would just forgot.

Forgetting would be so much more.

Forgetting would be so ridiculous

Forgetting would mean destruction.

It would mean total hell for quite some time.

At times, I kept wondering on how life would be.

How deliciously-silent it would be.

Why you'd broken in my door and survived my security measures.

How on earth you get in so quick.

Might be magic, I tell myself.

It seems so easy, that easy for him.

The months of putting those walls were all now shattered.

Now I need refuge.

It was a matter of life and death for me.

One more weep and I swear I'll fall down on my knees so hard.

It will be so hard, I couldn't imagine breathing in space anymore.

It would be a mystic, in-despicable torture.


For now, I need to cling on myself.
Cling on my hopes so often.
Cling on my priorities as much as possible.
And try my best to hold my guards.

But then, at the end of the day,

I don't want you to flown away from me.

And I wouldn't let you.

What would it be without you..

I can do this. Trust me. I'm good at this.