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Contentment. It is such a strong and enormous word for every significant human being on the planet.
It is idealistic, imaginative and conquerable. It will take huge amount of strength and time in order to process its system. It will endure plenty struggles and temptations. It will surpass the inevitable. It is possible.

The week had been - ugh!, so tight.
I never did imagine running a 7-day of total weakening days.
Someone I once had my life rotating on went subtle. It was contemplating. It was like a needle pinching in my neck. It was numbing me inside out.
I was just so blessed I was saved by my mighty hero. The other four days of the week was my strength, keeping me away from obscurities and insecurities.
At the end, I realized that the past lingers in the present.
The past can be of help for the present ideas and decisions, that is the most it can do.
The past stays at the past and the present is all that matters now.
Plus some major work-related surprises.
A great but wants-more game.

Life is a matter of choices.
A matter of life and death these choices are.

Hardships.
I want to figure out how it feels like embracing my state right now, with my other significant people.
It doesn't really mean it is a total commitment agenda but the oblivion on putting them together makes me excite at how it looks and feels. I think I deserve this. I deserve better. I owe myself a reward for good relationship. It will be an exact full turn of the wheel - on me engaging the two worlds - but I think it will be extremely fun and fulfilling. I waited a very long time to experience this. I hope it will turn out surprisingly positive.

True Love is a gift.

It was unquestionably a complication that I couldn’t simply read your thoughts to know what your reaction was to me. I wasn’t used to having to go to such circuitous measures, listening to your words in Jessica’s mind… her mind isn’t very original, and it was annoying to have to stoop to that. And then I couldn’t know if you really meant what you said. It was all extremely irritating.
Twilight, Chapter 13, p.271

In the last hundred years or so, I never imagined anything like this. I didn’t believe I would ever find someone I wanted to be with… in another way than my brothers and sisters. And then to find, even though it’s all new to me, that I’m good at it… at being with you…
Twilight, Chapter 14, p.300